Valentines Day!
This is a day that couples/ people in love are supposed to celebrate by spending time together and usually exchanging some sort of gifts. For those who are single it can be a day of depression or a day of celebration for those who refuse to become depressed. I am supposedly in the first group but its starting to feel like a singles bar over here.
I have never had a Valentine. I have of course had the elementary school boyfriends and I have had real boyfriends too but I have never had someone who got my flowers and/or took me on a date for Valentines day. I am turning 20 this year and I would just like to have one of these nights where I am just excited about love. I have tried to make this day special. I planned a little gift to give my "boyfriend" and I have dropped hints that I wanted flowers and no candy. My "boyfriend" just seems so stand offish about the entire thing. He can't talk about it without stating an argument. It's frustrating.
My roommate had a boyfriend and they have been together for over a year now. They aren't planning much this year (much to my friend's dismay) because they had a romantic dinner last year. The problem is that we are all in College. Not a state college where a state scholarship or a school scholarship covers your tuition. A private school, where tuition is 30k a year so basically we are all broke. We don't have a lot of money. Most students here get money weekly from their parents but some have part-time jobs that pay about $60/ week which is even worse sometimes. My "boyfriend" has a real job working 20 hours a week at about $18/hour which is a lot of money as far as I'm concerned. He is just so cheap.
I tells me to keep what I want under $100 dollars including roses and a stuffed animal. That won't even include dinner which means I will be eating Ramen. (= Yay me )=
I don't really know what I want as a gift. I haven't thought about it because I don't want to have some ideal gift in mind and then receive something else. It's not really fair because I do want a surprise. I don't want some trivial gift like a gift card I want a personal gift (possibly jewelry).
Maybe I'm wrong and need to get over it but this whole thing is just making me wish I was single.
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